aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the angels rejoiced today!
for what was lost now is found~
ok.
that's a little dramatic.
:)
but my husband and I had a defining night.
and not even a full month into the godblog project!


I feel weird discussing such a private moment in anothers spiritual journey but it is SO integral to mine.  and obviously...this blog is all about mine...and as it rests now...this blog brought both my husband and I closer to our God.

after we made the decision to start trying for a family, I felt the urge to get closer to religion.  at first it was a silent commitment to go to church every single sunday from conception to infinity.  ha.  that didn't work out so well.  and after the months rolled by and I forgot we were trying and then we really got pregnant!  going to church just to go to church felt like a chore.  and I tried to pay attention and I was interested in a few things but seriously.  it was still a chore.  and just like I don't like doing housework all by my lonesome, I didn't like attending church all by my "lonesome".  didn't matter if my husband went with me or if my mom went with me or if I went to the most popular sunday service - it was a few minutes of revelation (perhaps) and then nothing. 
so then baby girl was born :) and our world turned a little upside down.
and when it righted again, I still didn't have anything to give to her for a spiritual life.  and I still felt empty about that.  and the months rolled by and my mind wandered and I finally decided on this blog idea.  funny but I only shared the idea with one good friend for the longest time.  for all the research time.  I even fibbed to my husband about the reason I was reading a book about writing a blog.  but when I came clean -and accepted his advice (my versions were blessedquest.com, blestquest and blessedhabit) he suggested nellsgodblog.com and it stuck.
and when I finally got stuff up and running, the questions and discussions started.
tonight, those discussions erupted.  I had nnnnoooo idea what my hubby had repressed just to get by.  like I said, its weird to tell someone else's story but I need to try. 
I got to know him after he had been schooled and learned a lot about the bible and God.  he'd also gotten to know the way that lutheran people thought was correct to praise that God and guitar was usually not the answer.  also, missing church was not the answer.  the questions about his absence only lead to more and more misses and for lots of years now we have only gone to church for parental visits and weddings.
-here we are at today.
I asked about a concept of omnipotence (hand/glove/remind me to touch on it again) he brought up several days ago.  I really only asked because I was light on topics for today's post :) and what ensued was two hours of discussion and bible reading (revelations!)~two hours of passion and tears and I think we may go to church again for the right reasons:  because the bible is interesting and we want to know more about it.  because God is wonderful and communing with other believers will give us more to talk about.  because we've been given smarts and talents and its time to share them!