holidays

the day ended better than it began~ as far as guilt.
but guilt I should clarify, FOR THE WRONG REASONS!
I was guilty on this Easter morning because I didn't want to go to church and therefor my daughter wouldn't get to wear the fluffy dress she had been given (and can I just add that it was a warm day in wisconsin but certainly not warm enough for a sleeveless dress and bloomers...come on retail market managers! give us some regional weather appropriate options).
anyway.
church holidays only accent this chasm that I already have in my heart. I've been taught that God wants us to congrigate but is that totally necessary when I feel like pushing away from my faith every time I attend?? I find myself just being hyper critical or completely distracted! and I suppose that's why I've made a commitment to this more personal exercise of faith. nellsgodblog will be my church :) and the example I set for my daughter can be through actually thinking of God daily. not just going to hear about him weekly. I really do believe *