disillusionment = A feeling that arises from the discovery that something is not what it was anticipated to be, commonly held to be stronger than disappointment especially when a belief central to one’s identity is shown to be false.

psalm 14-17
he who is pregnant with evil and conceives trouble gives birth to disillusionment.
he who digs a hole and scoops it out falls into the pit he has made.
the trouble he causes recoils on himself; his violence comes down on his own head.
I will give thanks to the Lord because of his righteousness and will sing praise to the name of the Lord Most High

*that Lord Most High was capitalized that way in my bible and I like it especially...