I think I've been this weird combo of a believer in an unbeliever's shell for the past decade or so (ok. that really feels like I'm dating myself. like I'm CARBON dating myself). I've made the excuse that I'm being accessible to everyone in order to fit in and then pull people toward the light...but I've done none of the witnessing that should follow.
witnessing.
like evangelising.
I don't feel like I've ever been trained for that.
and like all skills it takes a knowledge base and practice I think.
hhmmmm.
I believe that you are like many of us Christians who fit into our God-given, pre-ordained vocation. God has chosen me to be who I am, married to the person He chose for me, bearing the children that He knew since the beginning of time, living in the home He has given me, doing the job that He has trained me for and touching the lives that He has put in my life's journey. If God had chosen you to be a missionary, you might feel differently than you do as a project manager. Witnessing and evangelizing may get easier with age/time - but, it is the Holy Spirit working through you that is important. I can never find the right words to say, but when I patiently give it over to the Holy Spirit, then the real work gets done. Continue on your quest and let your light so shine among men that they may see the Glory of God....
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